alt/on-going/pg-13 [so far]

a ‘legend of the seeker’ fan fic. i started writing just to write and it’s taken on a life of its own.

synopsis; a ruthless cult seeks the vessel that contains the power of unending sight. will cara and kahlan be able to protect the vessel? or die trying?

i really have the most fucked up dreams….

warning; here comes a massive rant!! my car goes from 0 to 60 in 5 minutes instead of 30 seconds… it sounds like an 18 wheeler when it idles… and’ll cost well over $1000 to fix… my desktops have hardware and software issues… my laptop sounds like a spaceship… my knee hurts… my jaw, my neck, my back, my hand… all flipping hurt! my damn jaw won’t stay in place… my laundry is piling up… this place is a mess… i spent all my money on the basics like toothpaste, floss, cat food and cat litter… then was an idiot and bought some cds… i’ve watched season 2 of legend of the seeker so many times now that i practically have the episodes memorized… and it’s not enough… never enough… i’m fat, ugly, stupid, and miserable… i have no friends here… i’m tired and exhausted and have no energy… did i mention the pain??? the last ever xena convention is coming and i’ll never be able to afford to go… i have no appetite… i’m barely eating… on and on it goes… pettier and pettier… whinier and whinier… is that even a word? i want somebody to love, who’ll love me in return… i want i want i want… to see new zealand and australia… to touch the history of egypt… i want to write the next best selling novel… i want my art in galleries all over the world… i just want to be… better. i want a life… to hold hands with someone while walking down the beach at sunset… to gaze up at the stars and promise tomorrow… movies… pizza… hiking… biking… exploring… learning… living… loving… geez, when i rant, i rant! i’ll shut up now, i think… and crawl back into my cave and back to my solitary life… where reaching out never gets me anywhere… where taking risks always breaks my heart…. JSU!!!

great, now my latop is dying too. i hate computers. :-/

can’t remember where this one came from, but i thought it was funny enough to share :-)

george yelled at me to get out of the shower… so he could lick the water off the walls… and yes, george is a cat. :-P

ob·ses·sion

noun /É™bˈseSHÉ™n/ 
obsessions, plural

1. The state of being obsessed with someone or something
2. An idea or thought that continually preoccupies or intrudes on a person’s mind
3. Haunted
4. Influenced or controlled by a powerful force such as a strong emotion; “by love possessed”
5. Ideas or thoughts that persistently intrude into consciousness

i challenge you amazing music vidders out there to use the song [any version] ‘what hurts the most’ in a cara/kahlan legend of the seeker music video, from cara’s POV.

anyone up for the challenge???? let me know here or at bludyke[@]gmx.com, minus the []’s

got some awesome boots! some art supplies, sheets, movies, and minutes for my phone! and i didn’t spend a penny! thanks mom!!!!!!!!!